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Yesterday was one of those days where I just didn’t want to have to TRY so hard to stick to my weight loss.  Food and eating is such an addiction for me.  It is hard to always make good choices, but I have to remember WHY I want to loose weight.  I want to feel good about my body and gain some of the confidence I know I have lost since getting this heavy.  We all have things we have in our life that we battle and mine is my weight.  I am NOT going to give up!  I am committed to this and will never be done working on being healthy and happy!!!  Without all of your support buddies this would be a LOT harder, so Thank you all for being here!!!

Although I have not been perfect over the last week I still am doing better.  I am exercising at lunch, even though it is only a 20 minute workout it is better than nothing!  It is better than sitting on my butt eating for those 20 minutes

 I am eating less, I don’t feel like I am starving I am just not eating out of boredom or to comfort myself.  I found this fabulous bag of frozen stir fry veggies at Costco.  They are SOOOO yummy.  I pop a bowl of them in the microwave put a little soy sauce on them and have a great lunch!

I am not good at eating breakfast mostly because I am not really fond of breakfast foods.  I am a vegtable fanatic, so I have started packing myself a salad for breakfast to take to work and I love it! Yummy veggies.  I love making purple cabbage salad.  I chop up a head of purple cabbage and mix it with some italian dressing season pack (and/or garlic salt), as much vinegar as I want (balsalmic is my Fav) and maybe just a tablespoon of olive oil.  It is crunchy tangy and good.  There are not many calories in cabbage and I love it!!!

I have decided to cut out sugar this week to see how it goes…so far so good.  I am not too big on sweets, so its not too bad (so far). 

I hope all of you gorgeous peeps have a healthy week!!! 

During the week when I go to work I am so good at counting calories an getting my butt on the treadmill.  Once the weekend gets here it seems like I gain back anything I lost through the work-week.  I need to stay focused during the weekend and get my butt working out on the weekend!!! A new Hot Yoga place just opened up like a minute away from where I live.  I am curious to try it.  I would love to hear from any of you ladies out there who have tried the HOT yoga thing.  I am nervous about going to a yoga place where there are a bunch of skinny snobby girlies…that is my insecurity shining through :(  I will work hard to keep my calories low this weekend!  Thanks for the encouragement! We CAN do it!!!

It has been a year or so since I’ve been here.  It has been such a journey from then until now.  When I stopped logging in here it was because my husband and I were going through a really rough time in our relationship.  We both have put everything we have into our marraige.  I can say that it was definitely worth it.  We celebrated our 10th anniversary in July and I am so happy in my marraige now.  But I am also now ready to put some effort into me and getting myself back to how I want to look and FEEL! 

I want to fit an exercise routine into my schedule.  I want to not compulsively eat.  I want to maintain a healthy diet.  I want to look and myself in the mirror and feel amazing.  Now I find excuses to not exercise, I eat things I know I shouldn’t, I eat way more than I should, and when I look in the mirror I think about how I need to buy bigger jeans to not have the dreaded “muffin top.” (lol)

 I work 53 hours a week, have two little girls, a husband and two dogs.  My life is full, but so what, if I can find time to overeat I can find time to exercise!

I am going through a bit of a rough patch and have realized that right now I not only need to work on being healthy, but also being happy.  When I am unhappy I eat SO much more, plus I am not motivated to exercise. So I am working hard this week to figure out how to be more happy in my life.  I feel like I have an emotional hangover from this week.  I have been stressed and I am recognizing how I eat to releive my stress.  I know I need to find a better stress reliever, like exercising.  My husband says I need a hobby, any suggestions?

I was reading about having a resolution phrase that you can use, like how AA uses the “Serenity Prayer.”  “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”  Or if that is not your speed you can go with the Kenny Roger’s version: “You’ve got to know when to hold ‘em, Know when to fold ‘em, Know when to walk away, Know when to run.”  Finding some mantra that can give us strength can help us stay resolute in our efforts!  Here is to finding the strength within ourselves to reach our goals!

Here I am thinking about how good I did last week and this week I just seem to be eating everything in sight.  Grrr… I am having tons of stress at work.  There are major changes on top of major clients needing their work, plus the added stress of mu husband wanting me to work more hours at my second job.  When I get home on the nights that I don’t work I just want to eat.  I want to do nothing more than sit in front of the TV and eat. 

I like both of my jobs most of the time, but there is so much that makes me upset.  I am the only one who works, my husband is a full time student so it is completely up to me to support us.  Before this I was a stay at home mom and LOVED it.  But we as a family made this decision for me to work once I graduated and my husband to finish school.  I just feel like I miss SO much of my kids lives right now.  I do not take them to any of their shceduled activities, none of their teachers know me. I know I help my family by working, but I think it is just wearing on me and I lose my motivation to stay healthy because I am unhappy.  But I feel like I must make this sacrifice for the greater good of my family.  But man I was the healthiest and in the best shape of my life when I was a stay at home mom.  I had plenty of time to exercise and plan a healthy menu for us.  It is the vicious cycle of being unhappy, so I eat, then I am more unhappy because I eat and don’t exercise, making me more unhappy, causing me to want to do nothing except to eat.  I try to stay motivated, but lately it just seems to be getting harder and harder.  I know I need to change some things, just having a hard time balancing everything. Sorry I am venting.

This weekend as I looked at myself in the mirror I realized how IMPORTANT it is for me to lose this weight. I used to feel so great about myself, now I dont feel as good about myself as I used to.  I dont like the way I see myself when I look in the mirror now.  I see someone who I do not want to be.  I am working hard to take back control of my weight and become the healthy person that I know I can be.  It is hard, but hey I know I can do this.  With the  great support from you all out there it makes it easier.  I love having you all to talk to.  I just want to get back to where I used to be.  When I would look in the mirror and see a happier healthier me.  I can do this, I hope…

Summer time is always such a busy time for us all.  These few months are condusive of parties, BBQs, weddings, vacations and other special events.  These are all things that can take us away from our workout routines and our good eating habbits.  While it may be a little tougher than usual we just have to keep on trying.  Even if we are not exercising as regularly as we want, we have to fit it in when we can.  When at these summer events I always try to not sit around the food and go for the veggie and fruit trays.  I also bring healthy food to BBQs I am invited to so I always have something I can eat without feeling guilty.  So lets just keep taking it one day at a time.  I have come to accept that my life is TOO busy to ever get into some great routine, so I will work in what I can and keep working on eating healthy!  Thanks for all of your support!

Well the week seemed to go well, but the weekend is coming and that is usually the hardest time for me.  I always end up eating more than I should and I am so not motivated to workout on  the weekend.  If I could just really control my portions on the weekend I think that would help.  We go to my in-laws usually on Friday nights for dinner and my mother-in-law always makes this crazy feast.  I need to have CONTROL!  I will be in control tomorrow!  And the rest of the weekend. 

I have my 10 year highschool reunion coming up in a month and I would like to lose another 8lbs before I go.  I know I would feel better.  I was between 200 and 220lbs while in highschool, so I know I will feel better than I did back then, but I am still not where I want to be or where I was at my lowest weight of 154lbs.  But I am trying to use this reunion as motivation as well. 

Thanks for all of the support ladies, I appreciate it!

So very cool to find such an awesome group of supportive people all with the same goal of getting healthier and shedding some pounds!

 This support is some great motivation, which is something that is so hard to maintain when tackling the challenge of weight loss.

I was down to 154 2 years ago when I was a stay at home mom.  Once I graduated from college and became the breadwinner for my  family when my husband got out of the Air Force, I just slowly have gained weight and made excuses not to exercise and be healthy.  I work 2 jobs, and they are both GREAT, but having 2 jobs, 2 little girls, and a husband does not leave much time for workouts… I want so badly to be back where I was and feel healthy ans sexy again.  So I am going to have to make time to work-out and not give into my mother-in-law always trying to feed me!

Thanks for your support Guys! You’re Awesome!